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[Jun. 8th, 2009|05:38 am] |
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Well I just took a practice test for Level 2 of the JLPT. I got 330 out of 400 points. I guess I did better than I thought I would. You only need 240 points to pass. So I basically got a B. Strangely enough I actually did worse on grammar than I did on the kanji section. I did best on the listening section. I guess that makes sense since most of the time I am just watching dramas and anime. If I turn the points into a percent then I got 93% on listening (聴解）, 82% on characters (文字 語彙）, and 77% on reading and grammar （読解 文法）. I almost want to take the level 1 practice test already to see how I would do. Maybe i'll try it later. |
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[May. 21st, 2009|10:20 am] |
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I really thought that if I let you go you would come back to me. Now either that saying is wrong or you never cared in the first place. |
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[May. 16th, 2009|08:26 am] |
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I was hopelessly in love, you were just hopeless. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2009|12:23 am] |
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I hope your deal with the devil was worth my misery. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2008|05:48 pm] |
Despite what people may think, I don't actually enjoy arguing everything with people. But when I make a point that makes obvious sense and they are still so blind that they don't understand what im saying, it is really annoying. It's like if someone tried arguing with you that 2+2 equals 73. It clearly doesnt. But they insist upon it anyway. So they you take two things and another two things and show them that 2+2 equals 4. And even looking right at it they will try to argue with you still. So then you show them again and again and they still think they are right. And then what pisses me off is that i'm now the jerk for trying to show them that they were so clearly wrong. But no, actually it's because i'm wrong and i'm the one being the stubborn idiot on the matter. And that is how they justify themselves as right and why i'm still the asshole. Because the entire time I was proving how I was right I was actually just trying to spread my lies and delusions to them. So really i'm the one who was wrong all along.
Or even worse when you argue with someone about something and try to show them how they are wrong, they get super pissed at you for accusing them of being wrong. But then once you explain everything to them they tell you thats what they were saying the whole time. Wow really? So this entire time when we were supposedly both saying the same thing you never felt the need to not even start an argument by actually just saying that? Instead of arguing about it and letting me prove my point you could have easily said, "That's exactly what i'm saying, we agree and theres no reason to argue." But if they did that it would mean I was right on the matter from the beginning. And we all know i'm not ever actually right about anything. I'm the harbinger of lies and deciet and I just have a complex that i always have to be right. Right? Oh wait I think I must be doing it again, I can't possibly actually be right about something. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2008|01:05 pm] |
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Well I got my license today. Well passed the test anyway. I have to wait until tomorrow or later to actually get the license. Although I still feel shitty. =/ Hopefully the stress and whatnot go away and then I can actually sleep again. |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2008|03:20 pm] |
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I am 176 pounds and 12% body fat today as of like two minutes ago. Just felt like making a note of it. I also slept like ten hours last night. I think I slept too much and woke up feeling a little sick though. But at least I finally stayed asleep for a night. Still took me a little while to fall asleep tho. I'm working on it. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2008|05:36 am] |
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If only I had you. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2008|04:16 am] |
Alright, this is getting ridiculous. Lately I have not been able to sleep when I want to at all. And of course the more i worry about getting to sleep when I need to the less sleep I get. Yesterday I maybe slept like 6 hours total scattered through the day. And the day before that I slept in the morning for the most part. So despite the fact that I should be tired I end up laying there unable to sleep. And of course if I get up I feel shitty and my head hurts. I just don't feel like really doing anything yet I can't sleep either.
If I think back to what started this it was when my mom made me go to the beach with her, nancy and jd. Despite the fact that i told her I didn't feel like going and that I was tired they just nagged and guilted me into going and turned me into the asshole. Since then I have not been able to sleep right. And of course lately I have to worry about actually being prepared enough to pass the drivers test in 8 days. All I keep thinking about is how much money i'll waste if I fail. It doesn't help much that even if I know i'm not a bad driver I can't feel confident. And if I don't feel confident then I don't enjoy doing whatever it is. And then obviously if I don't enjoy something I dont want to have anything to do with it. It's basically just a big circle of me really not wanting to drive. It feels like i'm being forced to learn something I don't need or want to use. But I want my license, not to drive but just to say I have it. That way people can stop looking down on me for not having something I have never needed.
I think i'm just getting more and more sick of being hated or looked down upon, not for doing something wrong but for not doing something. If I don't drink i'm too uptight. If i don't want to drive or go running off to some shitty pointless job then i'm screwed up. If I don't love every single thing i've ever encountered then i'm cold and heartless. If I don't believe in god or religion then I don't have faith or modesty. Everyone else in this world is making stupid mistake after stupid mistake and yet i'm the asshole for not acting like a fool. I have never made any mistakes in my life. I have never done anything that will hurt me or others and I don't do anything wasteful or stupid. But that is of course opinion because most people would think that I am wasting my life but not doing all of those stupid things. You only get one life they say. So why would I throw it away by doing retarded things or ruining my body with drugs, alcohol or other popular methods?
The things people do in this world because they are popular or because their 'god' forces them to are just foolish. Kids think that drinking and drugs are awesome because of how glorified they are in society. Other people base everything they do or don't do on what their 'holy' book says. Humans have been alive for far too long. They have come up with way too many unnatural things to occupy their time. Whatever happened to doing what it takes to survive and just living for the sake of living? Why exactly do you need to prove yourself to some god by following some made up rules that really have no effect on the outcome?
And what is with this thing that religion has against dying when you are sick than hell and on the way out anyways. They say you should wait and leave this world when god has planned it. Do you realize that going to a hospital and taking medicine are also going against that 'god's' master plan? And if you try saying that he gave us the resources to keep people alive so they can live then it is very easy to counter that he also gave us the resources to end it already. Why exactly is it more humane to let some suffer and wither away with cancer or some other disease when they could just be put out of their misery. If it is just part of that master plan to make people suffer in yet another way then that is just one more reason why i think the idea of a god is a scam.
But overall, the fact that I think this way is the reason why i'm always alone. My standards are too high. I'm too strict. I think everything is stupid. I judge everyone and everything too harshly. I'm self centered and stubborn. The way I feel is never the view of the masses, or even the minority. I'm more than used to this at this point in my life and i've already excepted that hardly anyone feels the same way as I do. Even if someone agreed with some of the things I say they still don't have enough conviction to actually follow through with it. Logic is obsolete and the world is becoming more and more rotten. Emotions are starting to rule more than ever and i'm sure someone could change the basics of arithmetic if they worked homosexuality and racism in there somewhere. Two plus two doesn't equal four anymore.
Well I guess i'm getting tired of going on about this for now. It's not like a single person would ever change their outlook on life based on the way I feel so it was mostly just to pass the time. But that's the only reason anyone does anything in this world. Without random stupid things to do we might actually have a prosperous race of people where peace and (straight) love actually take precedence. But who am I kidding, it's more likely that everyone on the planet gets struck by lightning at the same time before that would ever happen. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2008|12:41 pm] |
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Well right now I weigh 179.6 pounds (like 81.6 kg) and I have 12% body fat. That's pretty damn good if I say so myself. Haha. My height is about 187 cm still. Which is almost 6'2". The other day when I was with Basia I told her I was almost 6'3 which with my shoes on is almost possible but it was mostly a guess. She then told me I looked like 6 feet. That kind of offended me because if she remembered I think she is going to change my height to like 6 feet on the form =/. I forgot to mention it the other day too. Hopefully she forgot or its just not too hard to change later. Well I guess that's about it for now. If i ever feel like making notes again later I will. |
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[May. 14th, 2008|04:41 pm] |
So many places, so many ways
But there's no way home, nowhere I belong
So many faces fade away
And then life goes on |
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[May. 11th, 2008|06:40 pm] |
Why the hell is everyone in this world a fucking hypocrite? And why the hell are the only things that come to mind first for swears are religious. Damnit. I really need to stop talking to people that live in this world. People are so damn stupid it's no wonder there are wars and famine and global warming killing everyone. Oh wait, I'm sorry half the people don't believe in global warming.
Gahh, ok i'm kind of calmed down now. As few memories that I actually have it really sucks that there are still things I wish I could forget. I really don't even feel like explaining what pissed me off in the first place. Whatever, try to forget it for now and move on until something brings it up again. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2008|06:27 pm] |
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So my mom got a new scale. And since im weird, for a while i've always told her to get one with body fat and stuff. So this new one measures your body fat and weight. So I remeasured my height and oddly enough i'm like 2 centimeters shorter than I was last time. Maybe I just did something wrong. I'm about 187 cm tall and I weight about 82.2 kilograms. That's 6'2.2" and 180.8 pounds for any of your americans reading this. Then I found out my body fat percentage. It's 14%. That's a pretty good percent for my age apparently. So my weight and my bfa are both like perfect for my height. Can I get any more perfect? Geez. ;-) lol jk |
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[Mar. 24th, 2008|05:34 am] |
Well I am back from Canada now. I wanted to stay but I wouldnt have had a way to get home for who knows how long. Plus they had tons of snow. So I just came back for now. I really should be trying to get my license around now anyway. I'm bored already though. =/ |
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[Mar. 19th, 2008|05:44 pm] |
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I'm in Canada now. So much snow. And it's supposed to snow tonight until friday. |
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[Mar. 17th, 2008|10:59 pm] |
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I'm going to canada tomorrow. I have to pack up stuff but I don't feel like it yet. My clothes are still drying so I suppose I have time. I'm going to end up bringing so much stuff but most of it isnt going to go back with me. Anyway, off to go do that I guess. |
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[Mar. 16th, 2008|05:00 pm] |
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It's been like a week since I last posted.
Lately, i'v been listening to endwell and watching dragon ball z. I'm up to episode 94 right now. Goku just saved up the energy for a genkidama and piccolo is trying to hold freeza off so he can use it.
I've also been studying second grade Japanese. I can recognize all of these already but i'm actually trying to learn how to write them a little without needign to see them lol. I wonder if by some miracle I can learn through sixth grade by november or december. At this rate maybe but i'll probably forget about studying in a while.
Last week I was keeping a slightly steady schedule with working out but I already stopped that. My energy to do things comes and goes on a whim.
Pretty soon I have to write my final paper for english too. I'll check later to see if she graded the thesis part so I'll know if I should even bother continuing with that.
My character in heroes is finally level 40. I don't like being a support character like this tho. I can't wait for them to let us reset our abilities. Right now im a precog with superhuman strength and time manipulation. TM would be so much better if any of the abilities could be used to help yourself at all.
We are supposed to go to Canada on thursday maybe. We were going to leave today on a spur of the moment thing but a lot of things got in the way. So that didn't work out. I don't know how long i'm going to stay if I go though.
I've also been making an occasional lame attempt at finding a car and maybe learning to drive. I don't know what i'm going to do if I get both of those. I'll have to get a job if I do. I feel like taking a random trip somewhere if I get them too. I don't have anywhere to go though.
I guess that's a good enough jumble of random things for now. 次回も見てね |
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[Mar. 8th, 2008|01:46 am] |
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Well here's the story of my night for anyone who cares.
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[Feb. 25th, 2008|08:58 pm] |
Well only ai said she wanted it but I figured I would post something anyway. So here's the other thing I wrote two weeks ago or whenever it was.
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